ummmmmmmm.........BITCHES AINT SHIT IN 2005!!!!!!!!

Date:	2005-03-31 10:55
Subject:	Wat you think???
Security:	Public
Mood:	horny

Am I . . .


SeXxY ?

Sweet ?

Funny ?

Smart ?

Loser ?


Is it my . . .


Lips ?

Eyes ?

Smile ?

Personality ?

Style ?

Voice ?


Would you . . .


Date me ?

Love me ?

Friend me ?

Fuck me ?


Ever . . .


Dreamt of me ?

Daydreamed of me ?

Fantacized about me ?

Hated me ?


Personal comment about me ....?

Date:	2005-03-26 12:43
Subject:	THA CONCLUSION.....
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

Well i told my daddy wat happened, like i said he a lawyer. We bout to sew( i dont know how to spell it) ross, and tha city of berkeley, i told them that they fucked wit tha wrong gurl, lmao.......But im at my sister house right now, nia all up in my shit, lol. We bout to go to tha carnival today, with ALL tha kids, lol......but just wanted to tell y'all tha comclusion, i'll be back wit a real update....

Date:	2005-03-25 13:49
Subject:	FUCK THA POLICE!!!!!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry

MAyne, why todaii, ma, my baby, and my nephew went to ross right. Im in line bout to buy somethin, and then here come some nigga, working for berkeley guide, wasnt even tha police, tellin me that im tresspassin, and that he just saved me from goin to jail. I was just standin there, wasnt come at him out of pocket or nothin. I was like when do i have a court date and wat are you talkin bout. He was like, dont play stupid wit me, last week you and this boy just got caught with $600 woth of stuff. I was like, wat are yo talkin bout, i dont even hang around niggas, i dint say it like that, but i was bein very calm if you ask me. He was like, dont play stupid wit me, are you goin to sit here and lie to my face, i'll just see you in court, good day. I was hella mad, i aint never got caught stealn from ross, so how tha fuck was i tresspassin??!!!???? And for him to come at me like that was fucked up, nigga dont fuck wit me, please dont, you not even tha real police. I told my mama wat happened, and she was like " lets go up there right now, my daughter doesnt have no court date", lmao, awWwWwW, i love her: ) But yea like i said, fuck tha police, they had tha wrong gurl...............

Date:	2005-03-14 10:05
Subject:	Wat you think???
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake

Copy and paste this into a comment, and in each ( ) put an x if you would do this for me...

( ) buy me a drink if I didn't have money?
( ) take me home for the night?
( ) let me sleep in your bed?
( ) sing car karaoke with me?
( ) sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
( ) come and pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
( ) go out with me?
( ) give me your number?
( ) let me kiss you?
( ) have sex with me?
( ) watch a movie with me... even one u dont want to see at all?
( ) let me take you out to dinner?
( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere?
( ) take a shower with me?
( ) be my gf?
( ) have a fling with me?
( ) listen to me if I called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
( ) re-post this for me to answer your questions?

Date:	2005-03-12 23:44
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

wats up errbody, basically kaylah and nia, im bored aint got shit to do, tired, my body hurt, well i'll be bacc wit a real update, bye

Date:	2005-03-07 09:12
Subject:	"Dont have one"
Security:	Public
Mood:	disappointed

Well most of you already know me and nia broke up, and like i said i didnt want it this way, but shit happens, like i was told plans change. I just caint be wit nobody that say that they dont know if they got feelins for they ex or not, like i said, when you find out, you can get back at me, but all that is doin for me is givin me hurt feelins, i can do bad by myself....Nia i love you to death, im not bout to sit here and lie, i do, and thats reality, i caint change that. But its some things that we really need to work on, i been tryn, but i just dont feel like your open wit me like i am to you, but i know shit takes time, but you would think after 10 months we would be open with eachother. but i just want to say thank you, you have made me into a much stronger person, i reall needed that, thanks.....

Date:	2005-03-05 10:29
Subject:	"None.."
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake

*Singin* (Back in tha day when i was young im not a kid any more, but some times i sit and wish i was a kid again".........Lmao, yea i had to go back down memory lane real quik. N e who, i aint updated in hella long, my niece begged me to, so i am. Me and nia took pics, she got them on her page, i dont really like them, but we gone take some more soon, As far as valentines day went, we didnt really do shit but baby sit, yea thats our specialty, but we gone make it up on our aniversary, it'll be one year on may 25 : ) We juiced, we gone try to do somethin big. Damn i aint really got nuthin to really say, so i'll be back wit a real update soon.....

Date:	2004-12-01 20:18
Subject:	DAMN....................
Security:	Public
Mood:	curious

WELL, I JUST THINK ALOT ABOUT EVERYTHING, AND IM VERY OPIONIATED, I GUESS THATS HOW YOU SPELL IT. BUT THE WHOLE SITUATION THAT WENT DOWN WAS JUST RIDICULOUS. ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND GOT INTO IT, THATS NOT SURPRISING, BUT NOW I'VE GOTEN TO THE POINT WHERE I DONT EVEN FELL RESPETED ANY MORE, LIKE NO MATTER WHAT I DO, I'LL BE TREATED THE SAME. SHE WENT TO GO KIK IT WIT HER PATNA, I MEAN I GUESS, AINT NO TELLIN WHAT SHE REALLY DOIN. BUT N E WAY, I WOKE UP TO GO TO MY LASS, ENDED UP GOIN WIT MY MAMA TO MY SISTER HOUSE, AME BAK, AND SHE WAS JUST GONE, DIDNT LEAVE NO NOTE OR NOTHIN, I WASNT EVEN TRIIPIN OFF OF THAT. I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE TAKIN MY NIECE TO SMACCS, SO I WENT TO MY PURSE, TO GET MY MONEY, AND IT WAS GONE. I CALLED HER AND ASKED HER IF SHE SAW IT, SHE SAID NO, THEN I ASKED AGAIN, SHE FELT LIKE I WAS ACUSING HER, SO SHE HUNG UP IN MY FACE, WHEN I CALLED BACK SHE FINALLY SAID THAT SHE HAD. I WASNT EVEN MADE OVER THAT. I ASKED HER WHY SHE TOOK IT AND SHE SAID BECAUSE SHE DIDNT WANT ME TO GO NO WHERE, SHE CAME BACK, AND GAVE ME MY MONEY BACK. WE WENT TO ROSS, SHE STARTED TO HAVE A ATTITUDED, CALLED ME A STUPID BITCH, AND DIDNT EVEN THINK NOTHIN OF IT. THEN WHEN I WAS TRYN TO TELL HER HOW I FELT SHE JUST WALKED AWAY, LIKE IT WAS NOTHIN. THATS WHAT GOT TO ME, I WALKED OUT THE STORE, SHE DIDNT EVEN COME TO APOLOGIZE OR NOTHIN, MY FEELINS WAS HELLA HURT. NOW IF THAT WAS ME DOIN HER LIKE THAT, IT WOULD BE A WHOLE NOTHA STORY, BUT SINCE I HAVE MUCH RESPECT FOR HER AND MUCH LOVE FOR HER, I WOULD NEVER DO HER LIKE THAT. BUT SHE REALLY JUST ACT LIKE SHE DONT GIVE A FUCK, AND LITTLE BY LITTLE, WE GETTIN FUTHER AND FUTHER APART. SHE WAS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, MY FIRST LOVE, BUT ALL THAT COULD CHANGE IN A BLINK OF AN EYE......................................................................

NOTE TO ZANIA A.K,A GOOFY1NE:
IF YOU READ THIS TAKE THIS TO CONISIDERATION, IM HERE FOR YOU, BUT IM NOT GONE BE WIT YOU FOREVER IF YOU DO ME LIKE THIS. ITS NOT GOIN TO BE A NEXT TIME FOR YOU TO FUCK UP, YOU TOLD ME TO TELL YOU WHEN YOU WERE STARTIN TO SLACK OFF, WELL YOU ARE NOW. DONT EVER WALK AWAY FROM ME WHEN IM TRYN TO TALK TO YOU, EVER AGAIN, THE NEXT TIME YOU DO THAT, ITS GOIN TO BE OVER. I CAN PROMISE YOU THAT.

Date:	2004-10-23 12:27
Subject:	Update
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

Whad Hood nicka's....Blah shit with me this is not Nay this is nia am updating 4 her because she update my journal.Yesterday we went to see The Grudge and is was aight.I mean i jumped so what?!?!? shyt a nicka was scared and i was holdn on to my baby with all my all but shit i mean shit was poppin out and shit hell naw i dont fcuk with shit like that but now just to spend time w/ my baby i enjoyed myself alot....I mean she alwayz complain that we dont spend time but we do shit i damn near live with her.
I really love this gurl because she has been here when i wasnt here for my damn self she made me believe in myself all over again....WHEN I WANTED TO GIVE UP SHE WAS BY MYSIDE TELLIN ME I CAN do it!i love her for that i have been threw so much bullshit in my life and threw it all she stayed by myside.Am so thankful i have her by myside.I mean we have are up's and down's but shit what couple dont? I mean that's part of being together and not understanding eachother.I mean i can't she myself w/outh her"i am you you are me we are 1ne" but really she make my like complete.Am glad to have a gurl in my like herself...Blah but am out cause she want me to watch this movie with her.Peace up j2z down...Baby i love you alwayz and forever

IT SEEM LIKE EVERY TIME I GET HELLA HAPPY IN MY RELATIONSHIP, SOMETHIN ALWAYS GOTTA GO WRONG. ITS LIKE THE EX FACTOR, BY LAURYN HILL. ME AND MY BABY JUST GOT INTO IT, AND IM SITTIN UP HERE TRYN TO TELL HER HOW I FEEL, AND SHE NOT EVEN SAYN SHIT, MATTER FACT, SHE SLEEP NOW. THAT SHIT HELLA HURT, IM TRYN TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL ABOUT US, YOU, ME, AND EVERYTHING, AND ALL IM GETTIN FROM YOU IS, I DONT GIVE A FUCK. THAT SHIT HELLA HURT. I KNOW I MADE MY MISTAKES AND I ADMITT DOIN THEM , AND I ADMITT BEIN WRONG. IT JUST BE SEEMIN LIKE WHENEVER MY AND MY GIRLFRIEND GET INTO IT, IM ALWAYS THE ONE TRYN TO RESOLVE SOMETHIN, SHE ALWAYS THE ONE SAYN SHE HATE ME, SHE DONT, CARE, AND THAT SHE DONT WANT TO BE IN THIS RELATIONSHIP NO MORE. SHE BEEN SAYN THAT, AND I KNOW Y'ALL PROLLY LIKE WHY AM I STILL WITH HER, THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE, BECAUSE I LOVE HER AND IM IN LOVE WIT HER, AND ONCE I FALL IN LOVE WIT SOMEBODY, IT AINT NO FALLIN OUT. I HAVE TOLD HER OVER AND OVER AGAIN, THE SHIT THAT HURT MY FEELINS, BUT SHE GOT THAT I DONT GIVE A FUCK MANTALLITY. WHEN WE GET INTO IT, I STAY CALM, AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND HER, BUT SHE BE TALKIN TO ME LIKE I AINT WORTH SHIT. I LIED TO HER THE OTHER DAY, ABOUT SOMETHIN THAT WAS HELLA STUPID, AND I REGRET IT, AND I KNOW I MADE A MISTAKE, I CRIED CAUSE I NEW THAT I HURT HER, AND I NEVER WANTED THAT TO HAPPEN, BUT SHIT HAPPENS, THATS THE WAY THE WORLD GOES ROUND. BUT ALL I ASK FROM HER IS TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND HER MORE, I HAVE NEVER SAID THAT I HATED HER, NEVER SAID THAT I DIDNT CARE ABOUT HER, NAVER SAID THAT I WANTED TO BREAK UP WIT HER, BECAUSE I DONT WANT THAT. I DONT WANT ANY OF IT. SOMETIMES IT FEEL LIKE I LOVE HER MORE THAN SHE LOVE ME, BUT WHEN WE ARE HAPPY, WE ARE REALLY HAPPY, AND THAT FEEL SO0O0O0O0 GOOD TO ME, I NEVER WANT TO LOOSE THAT FEELIN. AND IT JUST MAKE ME HELLA MAD, THAT SHE GONE SAY THAT WE DONT NEVER TALK, IM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO IS TRYN TO RESOLVE SOMETHIN, IM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO TALKS FIRST. DONT TELL ME THAT WE DONT NEVER TALK, YOU CAN SAY THAT ABOUT YOU, BUT I ALWAYS TRY TO TALK, AND RIGHT NOW YOU JUST WENT TO SLEEP ON ME. THATS WHY I BE THINKIN ABOUT MY MAMA SO MUCH, I THINK THAT IF SHE WAS ALIVE NOW, SHE WOULD SIT THERE AND LISTEN TO ME AND ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND ME, AND HELP ME UNDERSTAND MYSELF. IT BE FEELIN LIKE DONT NOBODY UNDERSTAND ME, SOMETIMES I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND ME, BUT NOBODY HAS THE TIME TO SIT AND LISTEN TO ME, WHEN IM TRYN TO EXPRESS THE WAY I FEEL, SOME OF THE TIME, NOT EVEN MY GIRLFRIEND. I DONT KNOW, LOVE IS CRAZY, LIFE IS CRAZY, AND IT CAN NEVER REALLY BE FIGURED OUT. BUT IM NOT BOUT TO GIVE UP, THATS THE LAST THING IM BOUT TO DO. ZANIA BABY IF YOU READIN THIS, PLEASE REMEMBER THIS. I TOLD YOU THAT I WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU, WETHER WE WAS MAD AT EACHOTHER OR NOT, IM ALWAYS HERE.IM ALWAYS GOIN TO BE HERE TO LISTEN TO YOU, ALWAYS GOIN TO BE HERE WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR LOST, ALWAYS GOIN TO BE HERE, WHEN YOU WANT TO GIVE UP, ALWAYS GIOIN TO BE HERE TO DRY YO TEARS. MY ONLY QUESTION IS, WHERE ARE YOU AT IF YOUR NOT HERE???? I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

Date:	2004-09-22 09:44
Subject:	NOTHIN EVEN MATTERS
Security:	Public
Mood:	thankful

DAMN..............NOTHIN EVEN MATTERS. FOR AND FORMOST, BABY I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER. ME AND MY BABY BEEN GOIN WIT EACH OTHER FOR DAMN NEAR A YEAR, AND IT FEEL SO0O0O0O0O0 GOOD. WE BOTH HAPPY!!!! THATS ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT, IS US AND OUR REALATIONSHIP, NOTHIN ELSE MATTER. JUST AS LONG AS IM MAKIN MY BABY HAPPY, AND SHE STAY HAPPY, THATS ALL THAT MATTER. I LOVE HER WIT ALL MY HEART, AND I LOVE TALKIN TO HER. ITS LIKE WE CAN TALK FOR HELLA LONG ABOUT NOTHIN, LIKE STUFF THAT DONT MATTER, AND THEN TALK ABOUT EVERYTHING, AS FAR AS THE WORLD, US, OUR FEELINGS, AND JUST EVERYTHING. OVER THE SUMMER WE WAS WIT EACHOTHER ALL DAY, ERRDAY. AND WHEN WE WASNT WE WAS MISSIN EACHOTHER, HELLA MUCH. WRITIN LETTERS TO EACHOTHER, LEAVIN MESSAGES, TEXTIN EACHOTHER, IT WAS LIKE, "IT WAS THE SUMMERTIME, WHEN WE FEEL IN LOVE". YEA WE HAVE OUR UPS AND DOWNS, BUT WHO DONT???? I AINT NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD FALL IN LOVE LIKE THIS, I NEVER WANTED TO. ITS A TRI, "YOU ONLY WANT LOVE, WHEN LOVE DONT WANT YOU". BUT NOW, I GOT IT, AND LOVE GOT ME, AND IT FEEL SO GOOD, I DONT EVER WANT TO LET GO.

A NOTE TO MY BABY ZANIA A.K.A GOOFY1NE:
BABY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, WORDS CAINT REALLY EVEN EXPLAIN IT. I LOVE WHAT WE DO, WHEN WE DO IT, AND HOW WE DO IT, SHII YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKIN BOUT. BUT NOW, BABY THANK YOU FOR BEIN THERE FOR ME, CARIN FOR ME, AND ABOVE ALL LOVIN ME. YOU MADE ME COMFORTABLE AROUND YOU WITH EVERYTHING, I CAN TALK TO YOU ANBOUT EVERYTHING. AND YOU LIKE THE ONLY PERSON I CAN DO THAT WITH. I DEDICATE "MY BOO" AND "NOTHING EVEN MATTERS" TO YOU, CAUSE THATS HOW I REALLY FEEL. OH YEA, AND OUR THEME SONG "ALWAYS AND FOREVER". BABY I APPERCIATE YOU AND LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE, AND NOTHIN WILL EVER CHANGE THAT. I PROMISE. AND I PROMISE THAT I AINT GOIN NO WHERE, NO MATTER WHAT. SO BEFORE YOU EVER THINK DIFFERENT REMEMBER THAT. BABY IM GLAD WE TOGETHER, I NEVER THOUGHT THAT WE WOULD BE THIS DEEP, BUT SHII AINT NEVER REALLY WHAT IT SEEMS. WE KEEP GETTIN DEEPER AND DEEPER, AND I DONT EVER WANT TO LET GO OF THAT, I WOULDNT FOR THE WORLD. I SAVETHE BEST FOR LAST, AND BABY YOU THE BEST. YOU GOT MY HEART NO MATTER WHAT. AND ERRTHANG WE BEEN THROUGH, I CAN SIT BACK AND LOOK AT IT AND SMILE, BECAUSE WE OVERCAME OUR TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS. HEY BOO, I CAINT SEE ME WIT OUT YOU..................LOVE YOU........

***P.S. ARE YOU READY FOR ME, AND CAN YOU HANDLE IT!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :)